He's all I'll ever need....

Two years ago this coming weekend I officially met the Mr. Shannon Campbell. Him and Kayden came out to dad's. My first impression was, what a great dad to take his four year old daughter on a road trip all by himself to a fairly unfamiliar place.

My second impression was later that night we were playing cards and he addressed me as "Brynn." This almost never happens - usually people are unsure of exactly how to pronounce my name or they are unsure of what exactly my name is. So normally it takes being around me a few times before they will say my name. I have been called "Hey you", "Girl", "Brye", "Gwen", "Beau's sister", "Tyler's sister"....and so on. Yes, this impressed me! lol

After that night I knew we had a connection, I just could not explain it and was not sure if it was a friend connection or romantic connection. Well I found out what it was and in a little over a year I get to marry this man.

I am not marrying him because I want a wedding, because he is the best father in the world, because people think that is what we should do....I am marrying him because he is part of me, he is the one that will never turn his back on me, the one that will pick me up when I fall, the one that will laugh with me and let me cry....just to cry. I can not explain how much I love this man. I can not explain how he makes me feel. I can explain that it is different then anyone has ever made me feel. I am so thankful to have him in my life. I am so thankful to have him as the father of my child.

I am so excited to grow old with him. I cannot wait to set on our front porch and watch our grandchildren play.

So thank you Shannon, for showing me what love is....what kindness is....and for sharing your life with me.....I love you.

Life lesson...

Three years ago after giving birth to my beautiful little angel I decided to go back to school. I wanted to do this to be able to stand on my own two feet and support myself and Sky without help. I wanted independence - something I have not always been good at. Well I am almost done with my associate's. I never realized how much time it would take to go to school - as far as how much time I would actually spend on campus. I am at the point now where basically all I have left are a couple Algebra classes and classes that have a lab with them. I am kicking myself in the butt for not doing these classes before - when I didn't have a full-time job. It seems impossible to work full-time and finish. I am not scared of it being hard or being tired. I am scared of not being able to see my lil family. Especially Skyler who would not understand why I am not there. My options are to work all day and go to school from 5pm-10pm two days a week and do homework and study on the other nights or quit either my job or school. Quitting my job is basically not an option due to finance's. So what do I do? I have lost sleep over this and have been pretty stressed about it.

All I ever wanted to do growing up was be a "homemaker." Why can't I win the lottery, stay at home and finish school as I can??? Wouldn't that make life so much better! lol

Life is good though....I am so thankful for all I have been blessed with. Shannon is such an amazing guy and I can't wait to be his wife. Skyler is growing like a weed and full of life and personality. Kayden is so sweet and maturing so fast into a bright and pleasant young lady. I just wish I could get all this figured out. I feel like I am in a ditch with no way out watching "life" move on without me.

That's all I got for now...just needed to vent and get that off my chest.

:o)

BT